The Forbidden Emotion

[tealin]

I think I tend to be on a fairly even keel, emotionally – admittedly this is mainly due to a lack of emotion rather than any sort of hard-won balance, but still, I rarely have to struggle with self-regulation or the fallout of an outburst.* Occasionally I am very happy, or sad in a quiet way, but anger – real anger, not peevishness or frustration – is almost unknown.

But every so often ...

Someone will say something ...

And I feel the magma deep down inside go

     ...
               . . .       blorp

And I have to excuse myself in a hurry.


ADDENDUM
When I get angry, I get inarticulate. Luckily A.L. Kennedy has put into clear, calm words exactly the disjointed syllables I would have ineffectually spewed last night if I hadn't run away: The Trolley Problem

*The fallout of not being emotionally responsive enough, on the other hand ...

Comments

[(Anonymous)]

I consider myself pretty emotionally aware/emotionally expressive, but from the way you described it, I could tell EXACTLY that feeling of anger you're talking about. And yeah, it does tend to make me inarticulate too.

I love the Trolley Problem link btw. Though I can't help wondering what the other person said to make you think A.L. Kennedy's spoken essay was the response they needed to hear...

-K